domingo, 9 de mayo de 2010
....as scary as that sounds I am SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!
jueves, 6 de mayo de 2010
lunes, 3 de mayo de 2010
The other day me and Mir went to a farmer's market, the first day of, in Davenport. They had sooo many fruits and veggies and homemade goodies to sell and we ended up buying a good amount of things. Granola, asparagus, mushrooms, homemade fudge!, and rhubarb!! Later that night Braxton and Waloah came over, and like always were such a handfull. And they have the biggest imagination in this world. I love playing with them, house, or outside running around. Makes me feel like a kid again, so happy and carefree, and a very good reminder of how life should be.
I have been packing up the most of my things I need to take, and have everything ready to go, only 2 more weeks and a few days left.
I am loving this nice but cool weather we have been having, its been great to get up and go out in the garden, and already things are starting to grow! Its like having little pets or something watching them change everyday. Yesterday I picked a stalk of asaragus more than a foot long! It was soooo yummy ;)
jueves, 29 de abril de 2010
miércoles, 28 de abril de 2010
sábado, 24 de abril de 2010
Today was time to think about so much, people I miss being around, how good I feel now, leaving again so soon. My brother brought Waloah and Braxton over so I could see them. I sware they get taller and taller everytime I see them!
Life is so easy going right now, Im loving exactly where I am at.
jueves, 22 de abril de 2010
Good to be home with family, time to get organized for Costa Rica!!
Today I went with my mom and went to buy some flowers and plants. We picked a variety of colored-exotic looking flowers,and for veggies we picked peppers, cucumbers, and tomatoes.
Its recommended this year to plant your own tomatoes, they will be very expensive this year!
I have never really gardened before, so I was more than stoked to get home and start. We only got a little bit done, but the ones we planted look very good :)....still so much more to do though.
It was kind of difficult for my to get over the digging the wholes part, I was so careful to try and not disturb the little bugs and worms in their homes, but its def. not an easy thing to do!
Tomorrow my mom and I are going to Iowa City with Mir and her mom to go to some cool shops there and to spend the days with our mommys before we go.
The countdown is at about 23 days now, and I have so much to do!
miércoles, 14 de abril de 2010
I bet the plants are loving this, a little break from the humid, hot air and the dry soil.
The sound is one of my favorite sounds. esp when its raining hard and you can watch the drop bounce off the ground and explode into a million tiny drops.
Then every now and then there is a flash of light, and you count your mississippis until you hear the thunder to see how far away it is (1 mississippi = 1 mile if you didnt remember ;) )
Today we drifted in and out of dreams the whole morning, then ate some mickey mouse pancakes with strawberry jam and syrup :) its been a long while since Ive eaten pancakes.
Then, as every rainy day tradition, we found a great Lifetime-type movie to watch. =)
and there were def. tear coming from my end. (whats a good lifetime movie without them?)
Now I found some perfect time to just sit in the silence and watch the rain and give thanks for this beautiful rainy day. I feel so alive =)
Miranda and I are starting to realize how close Costa Rica is and we are starting to hit the dificult parts. We are trying to let everything go smoothly and its getting down to the wire, I think its just so much excitement, and were ready to just go.
I cant wait for new culture, a new home, a new job, everything.
But in the meantime, I sure am enjoying Playa and the part of my life that is here.
viernes, 9 de abril de 2010
Words can´t express how anxious and excited I am to be going and to be going with my best friend at that, so much emotion I dont know what to do with it!
I have completely return to my ways how things were in Playa and as long as I am here, things will continue to be this way (eating whatever I want, whenever I want, as much as I want!), never exercising or taking time for yoga/self reflexion, too much laziness =) but, its ok, because here, and now im on `vacation` jejee.....
I am finishing a book right now, The Four Agreements and I had originally found the book here in Spanish, it seems its a common read for everyone here. It has some very good points, and a very good overview on how to live life in such a way to be happy, positive, and spread nothin`but love. a very good read, so very much recommended to all =)
Tonight to head to work, we have been very slow at the bar but hoping it will pick up very soon (like tonight) we could really use some cashflow right about now !
Que Dios los bendiga <3
May God be with you all
viernes, 2 de abril de 2010
There is so many thoughts I need to write down and get out, and dont have the slightest idea where to start...
I should probably mention that now I am currently in Playa again, visiting of course. I originally wanted to come for just 2 weeks, but on arrival, I was offered a job and to stay to work and help around a bar here where Lalo is working. Since I am way short on cash-ola, and didnt intend on finding a job at home, I have decided to stay until the 21st of this (April) month.
I am really enjoying the life here that Playa has always had to offer me, and enjoying being a bartender again and getting to be around Lalo a lot. I have been able to see most all of the people I have wanted to see here in Playa, but have been working a lot, just about everynight so its been kind of hard to go out or to do things.
A couple nights ago, while working, we were informed that our former roomate, (dikis) was put into jail for some reasons that are still trying to be uncovered and i wont mention anything that i am not 100% certain on. For the past two days we have all been under some serious stress figuring out money issues, if he will get out, if he will stay, what he did, etc. Since the system here in Mexico is so different, I am so confused about the money they are asking for and what it has to do with anything. Everything seems to set me or lalo off so easily and I just keep praying that we can keep our energies going and be as positive as possible throughout this whole thing.
Today I didnt know what to do so I went on the balcony, collected some positivity and let all this stress and unwanted feelings escape from my body. I am tired from feeling these feelings of stress, scared, betrayal, and shocked, and it doesnt have to be this way, I dont have to feel like this. I understand completely that I (we) have nothing to do with this, but it hurts when something this serious happens to someone who you happened to be ¨close¨with.
I know I will be away from here soon, back home then to Costa Rica where I will be dealing with a lot more things (and probably some stress) but I need to listen to my body , keep myself and my mind focused as much as possible. Its the only way to get through things.
I noticed when I was mediating/praying, that I could feel all the stress in the right side of my back, all the way down. I have felt this before, but this time I let it get so strong.
I am going to be positive and spread this to everyone around me.
In a few days, this will all pass, but for right now there are so many emotions flowing through these bodies, vibes in many different places, ways.
Let this go.....let it go.....
martes, 16 de marzo de 2010
I have so many things I need to do before going, Ive started a list and it just keeps a growin'
We are getting a head start on some things, and have started making our own clothes, I cant wait to finish them and wear them around !
pictures to come.... =)
jueves, 11 de marzo de 2010
I am feelin' so sooo good~!
Thank you God for blessing me with such a beautiful, beautiful surprise in this dream se llama la vida!
Im now going on to Chapter 3 in this magical life of mine.....
I can 't wait any longer...
(details coming soon, i just cant spill the beans yet ;) )
(is all i can say!)
lunes, 8 de marzo de 2010
I can't believe how the weather can effect a mood, but I've totally told myself to stop getting in such a funk about how gloomy it is outside, it has nothing to do with your mood!
Your mind is such a funny thing and I have been filling my mind with so much information about how the mind works, controlling your mind (because you DO have the power to do so), and feeling good (becuase is there any other way, really??). I am trying so hard to fill my family and friends with my love and understanding and teach them how to control emotions, how to stay happy and I am always learning so much from so many experiences (here esp).
I feel so blessed to have been given a gift, of curiousity.
I wonder why other people don't question themselves about everything outside of this 'normal' life. and how when people look up to the beautiful, starry, night sky they dont question and wonder whats up there.
Recently I have been studying and watching videos and listening to lectures on the universe, space, and I find it so facinating, i cant get enough!
I hope that my mind continues to wander and hopefully I can meet some people around here with a more 'open' mind....that can relate to the craziness that is going on in my mind.
domingo, 7 de marzo de 2010
If I could get the words to vent about how i feel , i would.
If I could write how hard this is in words, I would.
But i can't, because i am taking everything as it is coming to me. So Im going to say that today I am ok, i am happy, and i am so content with the direction i am headed in.
whether im the only one who understands it or not.
martes, 2 de marzo de 2010
I realized how much I missed these two and I feel so good and blessed for this time I get to be spending with them. Two very amazing women. :)
Today I bought my ticket to go back to Playa and am looking forward to going back! What a life I had there, so many good people all around me, I miss all of them!! So i leave the 22nd of this month, and I know this time will just fly by so I need to start getting things together, and enjoying these last moments here before I fly back 'home'.
I sure will miss the sunsets here. And the food! and the greatest people inthe world!!
jueves, 25 de febrero de 2010
The sun is shinin' and its a warmin' up the day!
((its still freezing!))
Im getting more creative and its about time, the whole time I was here, I have been distracted by the computer and the tv and so I figured I should start changing my ways and using the time while Im here to learn some new things, and now that I have all this time to be creative, I better do it!
I have a stack of very good books that I'm trying to read all at the same time because each one is sooo good in its way. I love escaping for a little bit. The other night I transformed my room into a meditation haven and meditated a little bit, read a little bit and reconnected with myself, what I have been lacking on.
Also I figure, new setting, new season, new look. So I chopped off all the unhealthy-ness of my 'surfer hair' (as my mother loves to call it) and added a touch of funkiness and I'm loving it! My hair now feels sooo healthy and ready to start growin'!!
I have been a little more strict on myself with the eating. When I arrived, I ate all the yummy foods I missed so much, my mothers cooking (!) and so much junk food, Dr. Pepper (which was one of my most missed things, not going to lie :) ), and eating ALL the time, so now I am cutting it down a bit and slooooowing down a bit.
One of her many amazing home-cooked meals, chicken & noodles!!
With most of the homecooked meals eaten, ( and literally under my belt ) and eating 'lighter' I have also added some daily yoga! Now that I have time to, its so enjoyable. So lots of H20, sleep, yoga, meditation time, reading, art....I am one happy/relaxed woman!
domingo, 21 de febrero de 2010
We started early at around 3:00 with some lunch and margaritas and a little mexican flavor. I dont mind, I can eat mexican food, listen to mexican music and speak spanish all day long, I will never stop lovin it ;) I might as well be part mexican now (awevo;))
I will update later on the inches we've received!!
sábado, 20 de febrero de 2010
Maybe this is the first time i have really enjoyed wintertime. Cuddling up on the couch with lot of blankets and a good book, or to watch a good movie. Its such a warm feeling =) Sundays are, and have always been, a lazy day for everyone in the family and we all sit around the tv for a good film.
Today isn't Sunday, but its another lazy day. This morning I watched the movie The Secret Life of Bees, such a good movie. Pefect way to start the morning =)
This weekend we are watching the kids and its so refreshing their energy and creativity. Waloah always wants to play dress-up and put makeup on me and my mom and make us wash it off 10 times so she can keep re-doing it. Braxton is like every little boy and likes to play video games and run around a lot. I sure have missed them.
Tomorrow we move Connie completely in, it will be a lot different in this house without her. But Im very excited for her to have her own space and finally have her own apartment here. =)
jueves, 18 de febrero de 2010
Yesterday was verrrryy cold and i kept buddled up in my coat all day, even when i was inside the house :o)
I went with Connie and my mommy to pick up some things for Connies apartment, me and my mom have a knack for these things and we felt like extreme house makeover jejeje...
So now that I have my computer and everything Iam finally ready to start taking online classes! I havent been able to stop thinking about them since I found out about them. I never thought I would be this excited about school :p
martes, 16 de febrero de 2010
Even though I got to talk to Lalo throughout the day, it was still really hard to not be with him on this day.
I never celebrated or thought of Valentines day as anything important, until I met Lalo.
2 years ago when I met Lalo (11th of February) and went out with him that first night, we were unseperable and on the 14th, he surprised me after work with candles and wine on the roof of his (our) old apartment. I have never had anyone do anything remotely close to anything like that. It was like a scene right from a movie!!
4 days later, we were 'official'.
A year later, Lalo surprised me with a sushi dinner onthe roof again, in the same spot, with candles, wine, and blankets to watch the stars.
So this year (2 years) and not being with him on Valentines day or our 2 years together has been really dificult.
Thank God I am blessed with my family and having this year to spend with them, and share soo much love with them.
Josh brought over Braxton and Waloah and I spent the day with them wrapped in my arms giving them all my lovin!!
I have missed them so much and cant believe the little people they are growing up to be. Braxton is so full of love and laughter and he makes it so contaigous. Waloah is my little girly girl :)
Coming back home and being apart of this again, has made the other part of me realize so many things.
Ive been able to hang out with Tyler, share music, talk and just hang out. He is such an amazing person.
I am so glad Connie is living here now, getting to talk to her and reconnect with her and my mom and finally being able to talk to my dad in person instead of emails here and there!
Tonight we (my dad & I) are going to a 'Ragin Cajun' dinner where my aunt works, lots of chefs making yummy cajun food =) mmmmmmmm......
domingo, 14 de febrero de 2010
For me, today is a lazy day of watching movies with my mommy and cuddling up on the couch in our pjs, i have missed this so much!!!!
Last night we went the my mom's friend's (Jody) birthday party about an hour away. It was about an hour drive and, saying we were going to only stay for 2 hours, stayed til 5 karaoking the night on by. =) We did some classic Dixie Chicks, Queen, Gretchen Wilson, oldies & goodies, it was a blast!!
We got to visit with Jody, Bill (her husband) and Michael (her son). They were my neighbors growing up in Bettendorf, and Jody has been my moms best friend for more than 20 years. It was so nice to see them again, and remenice about all our childhood memories. So many more memories and details fill your head once you start remembering them.
So Im still pretty new at this blogging thing, and am accepting all advice & tips!! I have so much I want to add on here, and (hopefully) ill have a new computer by tomorrow!!! That i can FINALLY upload my pictures that i have from Christmas!! Im way overdue =) And hopefully I will be starting classes next week. Im soooo excited where this 'career' could take me. For some reason, for some time now, i have been feeling a strong desire to make my next move to India, Thailand, Cambodia. I feel like there is so much there that I need to learn and see. The culture, the nature there has always interested me.
Abi- if you are reading this, on this computer i cannot comment you or do much of anything.
I love reading and following your blog, and i think im getting better! and will get some pictures on here soon !
i love you very much and i hope that you and joe have a beautiful valentines day!!
sábado, 13 de febrero de 2010
and it feels soooo good :)
Being with my beautiful family laughing hours on end. Enjoying the company of my friends, remembering the good times, making new ones...
Today I got to see my neice and nephew and I cant believe how much they have grown up in the time i have been gone, its crazy.
I rearranged my room completely, i needed something fresh and new and needed to get rid of sooo many things in here. Simplify, simplify, simplify.
Also, since ive been home ive been looking online for some online classes to take. I had no idea what I was looking for, or what my interests were. I started looking up 'environmental science' or 'environmental management' and requested some more information. 2 schools called me yesterday but when they showed me the curriculum, it didnt spark me at all as anything I would like to read about and do homework. :P So i kept looking and looking, thinking psychology might be something I would be interested in, but since it is a very intense major, there was about 2 years of pre-requisites, not interested.
So I finally (after looking up religious studies, spiritual studies, etc.) find exactly the perfect studies for me, metaphysical science. =)
Courses that were made just for me it seems. The whole course takes about 3-4 years for total completion, but differs from person to person, how fast you go through the courses. Bachelors, masters, and doctorate. And im more than stoked to get started.
Here is the first year (for bachelors degree) :
Bachelors Degree Curriculum:
Consciousness I: 25 credits
CS103 Metaphysical Communication & Problem Solving Methods
CS104 Affirmations & Reprogramming
CS105 Shadow Work
CS106 Transforming Personality
CS107 Emotional Well-Being
CS108 First Causes-Core Issues
CS109 Inner Child Work For Adults
CS110 Anger Management
Metaphysical Health Studies I: 15 credits
HS102 Juicing, Fasting & Cleansing
HS102 Pranayama & The Art Of Breathing
HS103 Herbs & Natural Medicines
World Religions: 25 credits
WR101 Overview Of World Religions
WR102 Great Spiritual Teachers, Gurus & Yogis
WR103 Mystical Beginnings Of Christianity
WR104 Native American Traditions
WR105 Gods, Goddesses & Mythology
WR106 Wizards, Magical Creatures & Adepts
WR108 Shamanism: Indigenous Worldviews
Meditation Skills: 15 credits
MS101 Overview Of Meditation
MS102 Hypnosis: Self & Others
MS103 Colors & Symbols
MS104 Unlocking Imagination
MS105 Mantras & Mudras
Intuitive Skills I: 25 credits
IT101 Chakras & Auras
IT102 Psychic Skills, ESP
IT103 Divination Systems
IT104 Channeling Skills I
IT105 Crystals & Gemstones
IT106 Astrology Basics
IT108 Connecting With Angels
Miscellaneous Courses I: 25 credits
DR100 Dreams & Dreaming
CM100 Course In Miracles
RC100 Reincarnation, Past/Future/Simultaneous
MF100 Manifesting Skills
EM100 Energy Of Money
CP100 Creative Project
super amazing, right ?? =)
the universe has amazing ways of bringing to you exactly what you are supposed to be given, and i feel so blessed. everything is just fitting together like a puzzle . I FEEL GREAT!!!
sábado, 6 de febrero de 2010
Im really going to miss Lalo and all my good friends Ive made here.
Im really anxious to see how my life is going to turn, what changes are coming up.
Due to the 2 weeks of my trip sleeping in some cheap places and hanging around lots of dreadlocks, I got lice!!! The last (and only) time I had lice was in 3rd grade. Just thinking about it gives me the chills :S. So today I spent 2 hours with lalo getting them out of my hair.
I had to cut my one dread out and the other wrap in my hair. It was a little hard for me to cut them out because they had become apart of me!! but now im fresh and clean and it was worth it :) haha the whole apartment got a full clean haha but no more lice !!
Tonight im going to help lalo out at the beer bucket them off for some beers with Ema, and hopefully Raquel and Pamela. A little get together with the girls before I leave here.
Tomorrow is the superbowl and lalo and i are going to help out my cooking hamburgers, hot dogs, helping with the decorations, and everything for the night so it will be fun =)
lets enjoy this to the fullest
martes, 2 de febrero de 2010
I saw so many things, felt so many things, met so many people and made some amazing memories. =)
I spent most of the trip with (now) good friend, Andrei who showed me some really amazing spots, waterfalls in the jungle, secret pyramids, the beaches of oaxaca, tlayudas, pulque (sp?), la sierra, and the city!
and that nothing is forever =)
I also had a life changing mushroom trip in Palenque, alone in the jungle. I wont go into any detail, as some might think Ive gone crazy, but in the end, i learned to much about myself, others, this world.
Now I am here until the 9th then I go back to Illinois where it is freezing. I have been thinking about not staying home for long, or coming back , or ??? I dont know whats going to come but I have some serious thinkin to do!!
more later, before i goooooooo
jueves, 21 de enero de 2010
The weather here is a bit colder than Palenque and the nights are soooo collddddd.
We are staying in this hostel called La Casa del gnomo (house of the gnome) and there are only about 3 rooms and 35 pesos each person a night, sooo cheap and sooo relax.
they people there are travelers like us, and all have very unique stories to tell.
I love the vibe these people have =) so relax and not worried at all, its such a good way to live.
We are leaving today in the afternoon for Mazunte, Oaxaca and I think its about 8 or so hours. Im so excited to get there and see Oaxaca, I really like it here, but Im soo anticipating something new ive never seen before :)
lunes, 18 de enero de 2010
domingo, 17 de enero de 2010
We arrived around 6:30 this morning, with really rainy wet weather and went to the first hostel, with no luck of any cabañas. So we went next door to a place called La Palapa and found a place there.
The cabañas are really neat and they all surround a pond in the middle.
I love the noises of the jungle. When we arrived, i fell right asleep to them, its so peaceful.
We woke back up around 1 and came to the center to get some food.
We are planning on going to the ruins, and looking for some honguitos along the way :)
lets see what pops up....
lunes, 11 de enero de 2010
what a beautiful monday this was.
This morning I woke up in Cancun and looked out to the laguna thats in the back of this building and i just think of everything that has happened over the past month and i cant believe any of it.
Its all just a dream, im bound to be waking up soon....
pancakes and somenew mexican food , coffee and juice to start it off
micheladas and jam session with good energies )) happy girl ((
But we just started rollin. And these next two weeks will be something so amazing and a wonderful to wrap up my time in mexico.
I have decided that I will leave the night of the 16th. The only (2) reasons I am waiting and holding off is 1) i will save some money just staying around here and 2) there is a reggae festival in un cenote on the 15th. i mean, i really dont have to say more.
I am going with (so far confirmed ;) ) 2 friends who were meant to take this trip with me. The universe has all pulled us into this trip and now its going to be an experience of a lifetime. and I know im going to learn so much from these beautiful boys.
:) I am officially a hobo, a drifter.
I like to call it `floating` around to wherever this tropical wind will take me until im off on a `plan`.
i love this lifestyle and could def get used to it, but im still trying to figure out the money part, jeje
everyday my eyes see something new.
i am understanding so much more.
Mir became so much closer to me this trip and i think something has changed in ourselves since the last time we saw each other, i felt like i understood her completely now, and connected with her more than i ever have before. its like it just clicked on full. hahaha
thank you for this wonderful, continuous feeling :)
jueves, 7 de enero de 2010
It was official 2:30 today when she left :( We had the greatest week that topped all weeks !!!!
We went to Coba, Cancun, Wet & Wild, BPM, the beach, good restaurants.
So much happened, we met so many new beautiful people, saw so many new things, it was such a good way to keep this vacation going!!
So I have decided to go on my vaca on the 13th and leave for Palenque.
There is so much thats going to happen and I cant help but be EXCITED!!!
perfect, soooo perfect.... :)
i just keep on smilin´