It has been awhile since I have written anything, mostly due to not having a computer/internet.
There is so many thoughts I need to write down and get out, and dont have the slightest idea where to start...

I should probably mention that now I am currently in Playa again, visiting of course. I originally wanted to come for just 2 weeks, but on arrival, I was offered a job and to stay to work and help around a bar here where Lalo is working. Since I am way short on cash-ola, and didnt intend on finding a job at home, I have decided to stay until the 21st of this (April) month.
I am really enjoying the life here that Playa has always had to offer me, and enjoying being a bartender again and getting to be around Lalo a lot. I have been able to see most all of the people I have wanted to see here in Playa, but have been working a lot, just about everynight so its been kind of hard to go out or to do things.
A couple nights ago, while working, we were informed that our former roomate, (dikis) was put into jail for some reasons that are still trying to be uncovered and i wont mention anything that i am not 100% certain on. For the past two days we have all been under some serious stress figuring out money issues, if he will get out, if he will stay, what he did, etc. Since the system here in Mexico is so different, I am so confused about the money they are asking for and what it has to do with anything. Everything seems to set me or lalo off so easily and I just keep praying that we can keep our energies going and be as positive as possible throughout this whole thing.
Today I didnt know what to do so I went on the balcony, collected some positivity and let all this stress and unwanted feelings escape from my body. I am tired from feeling these feelings of stress, scared, betrayal, and shocked, and it doesnt have to be this way, I dont have to feel like this. I understand completely that I (we) have nothing to do with this, but it hurts when something this serious happens to someone who you happened to be ¨close¨with.
I know I will be away from here soon, back home then to Costa Rica where I will be dealing with a lot more things (and probably some stress) but I need to listen to my body , keep myself and my mind focused as much as possible. Its the only way to get through things.
I noticed when I was mediating/praying, that I could feel all the stress in the right side of my back, all the way down. I have felt this before, but this time I let it get so strong.
I am going to be positive and spread this to everyone around me.
In a few days, this will all pass, but for right now there are so many emotions flowing through these bodies, vibes in many different places, ways.

Let this go.....let it go.....

So just when we all start thinking Spring is near, they say we are about to get a snow storm....

you just never know when it comes to mama nature~!

So the big news is out,... and I will be going (with Miranda) to San Jose, Costa Rica May 19!!!!

I couldn't be more excited about this and I can't quite grasp the concept of it yet!

We are starting in San Jose with a 4-week course to learn how to work with people and teach English as a second language. During these 4 weeks, we will start to look and interview for different job options around Costa Rica. I personally haven't been looking at any places in particular, I am so ready to welcome whatever destination comes our way.

I am so looking forward to helping people, and it is going to be such a plus knowing Spanish.

Today we faxed out our application, and the deposit is paid for so its official!

Now we are just waiting for someone from the school in San Jose to call us so we can start setting up our accomodations, in a hostel we hope =)

I can't wait to show at the markets and buy all of our fruits and veggies, and make such a healthy lifestyle =)

I have so many things I need to do before going, Ive started a list and it just keeps a growin'

We are getting a head start on some things, and have started making our own clothes, I cant wait to finish them and wear them around !
pictures to come.... =)

respira pura vida, respira inspiracion

This is what I'm feelin'!!


I am feelin' so sooo good~!
Thank you God for blessing me with such a beautiful, beautiful surprise in this dream se llama la vida!

Im now going on to Chapter 3 in this magical life of mine.....
I can 't wait any longer...
(details coming soon, i just cant spill the beans yet ;) )


May 23.....

(is all i can say!)


<3<3<3<3

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Back to Positivity!

Today is a new day, as much as it was dreary, I felt good!

I can't believe how the weather can effect a mood, but I've totally told myself to stop getting in such a funk about how gloomy it is outside, it has nothing to do with your mood!
Your mind is such a funny thing and I have been filling my mind with so much information about how the mind works, controlling your mind (because you DO have the power to do so), and feeling good (becuase is there any other way, really??). I am trying so hard to fill my family and friends with my love and understanding and teach them how to control emotions, how to stay happy and I am always learning so much from so many experiences (here esp).
I feel so blessed to have been given a gift, of curiousity.
I wonder why other people don't question themselves about everything outside of this 'normal' life. and how when people look up to the beautiful, starry, night sky they dont question and wonder whats up there.
Recently I have been studying and watching videos and listening to lectures on the universe, space, and I find it so facinating, i cant get enough!
I hope that my mind continues to wander and hopefully I can meet some people around here with a more 'open' mind....that can relate to the craziness that is going on in my mind.
........

Ill be ok

Rainy day & Sunday= lazy day in bed, movies all day.

If I could get the words to vent about how i feel , i would.
If I could write how hard this is in words, I would.

But i can't, because i am taking everything as it is coming to me. So Im going to say that today I am ok, i am happy, and i am so content with the direction i am headed in.

whether im the only one who understands it or not.

i love feeling this good. =)

This past weekend, i spent with my mom and my aunt Connie. We went up to Iowa City and did some shopping. I have the most fun with those two, we are so much alike and i love hearing stories from them and laughing with them all day. We found so many good shops and places to eat (and yummy things to drink! martinis!) It was a blast.
I realized how much I missed these two and I feel so good and blessed for this time I get to be spending with them. Two very amazing women. :)

Beautiful Sisters

Family=)

Today I bought my ticket to go back to Playa and am looking forward to going back! What a life I had there, so many good people all around me, I miss all of them!! So i leave the 22nd of this month, and I know this time will just fly by so I need to start getting things together, and enjoying these last moments here before I fly back 'home'.

I sure will miss the sunsets here. And the food! and the greatest people inthe world!!

muah!!